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i just want to stay young for as long as i can. because i think i was born old, and i know that life degrades way too fast. when you're young you feel ancient, and when you're older you feel like a baby. i guess everyone goes through that. but i think deep down i'm just old. i was an old man in my last life and he won't let go but just pretends to be young. things just degrade too fast. before i even reach them. my sister wants to join some new age reincarnation sylvia browne psychic church in LA. in lieu of being methodist like her boyfriend. i think someone should just go all the way -- take the rituals of catholicism and make a full blown church of the sadomasochist. all the boylovers and BDSMers would have a place to go. and lots of priests would too. and it's all very religious anyway.