Tomorrow, I go to a new place. I feel kind. Peanut is giving me looks, he knows what I'm doing and doesn't like it. It's easier to leave people you need than to leave people who need you. Soon I am going to see my sister and M, who I think about a few times every hour. Possibly for the rest of my life. I kind of like that.
I saw 'Our Lady of the Assassins'. It is a beautiful wonderful movie. I had a dream that night I was in a gunfight but I wasn't scared because Renee was with me. Courage is great! Being American and female, I need to remind myself of what it is. I don't think it was something I was ever taught. But it makes the difference in everything. The rest of my stay here is going to be alcohol, blueberries, quality cat time, that drunk walk through the city where you can never walk quite fast enough.