I went to see Batman again last night but I should have waited another day. My job was on my mind too much and I can't really get away from it completely. That scares me greatly. But I am nervous around adults and this way I don't have to be nervous all day. Though I guess kids make me nervous too. I just don't feel so aware of it. I'm afraid of everybody. It still takes effort to deal with people. I'm surprised that more people I know don't understand this. And people still think that happiness is the utmost goal in life. Happiness gets boring after awhile, like everything else. It's kind of a false state of mind. Humor is better. Creative angst is better. Happiness leads to blankness. It gets bland. Anyway, what does it take to be comfortable around people? Besides alcohol, which doesn't work that well. I am curious to know.

Good things:
ovulating today. wrote Robin porn. instead of babies we get Robin porn.
peach smoothies and 'a hard rain's gonna fall'
teal blue suede sandals
Dennis Cooper has another contest!